sweetspirits dayz nightz destiny desire: June 2005

Hyundai FX Rd 11

Hyundai FX Rd 11
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Now this the baby i really want :) but in red or black with electric sunroof.But i must say most people have said " Don't buy
a Hyundai :(. So i have just been reading so many reviews.

I'll decide next week maybe ;)

Ford Falcon AU

Ford Falcon AU
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Now i have been wanting a AU Falcon for the past few years.I really do like big cars and 6 cyl, but with petrol at $1.29.9 per litre hmmm.I guess one wouldn't save a great deal of money on petrol if you had a 4 cyl...I'm seriously thinking of buying this car because i love Fords.I spoke to the dealer on monday, but i also like a Hyundai FX RD 11 Coupe "confused " haha i really want a sporty car but i want space.

Toyota Sera,

Toyota Sera,
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Time to buy another car .Emilio reckons the Toyota Sera is my kind of car..I like it but ,it is too small.

Cold Rain

It has been raining for days n nights and the days and nights are really cold.Today i just laid on the futon with our cat.Yes i spent the morning talking to her ,she is a sook always has to be with me.
If i sleep downstairs she sleeps downstairs .Anyway i didn't really feel like blogging but what the tha heck.Wow i didn't realise it is so cheap to fly to KL , yes i was checking out some Asia travel deals.Also i am checking out westnet

Yeah time to find a new isp :)
cheerz

And This

To You . . .

I miss you these days, more often than not..
And wonder if I should tell you how much..
But then again, I smile to myself, the secrets stay mine..
Though I still stay hoping.. You”ll find it sometime..

So much to say, that’s why, I let all go unsaid..
You can hear them in mysilence, if you gently tread..
Thoughts wrapped in fondness, Yet they cant stay mine..
That’s why im hoping, you'll find those sometime..

Miles have I traveled, but the horizons so far..
Was it just the wind, or did I hear someone call..?
So I stop awhile.. to make this memory truly sublime..
And softly leave it there, hoping you would find it in time..

Life is no fishbowl.. its the ocean for me..
Fears we leave behind, and wont turn back to see
Tell you what sweetheart..
Lost souls we just were’nt meant to be..
Ever since your chapter was added to my destiny . . .

Poem by - Unknown

I Like This

Somebody . . .

Somebody came into my dreams,
And left a thousand memories.
Somebody became mine,
And left me the waiting.
Somebody is far from me today,
But very close to my heart.
Somebody became a stranger to me,
But left me the Love of a thousand years.
Now the morning beauty is gone,
And the night of loneliness begins.
Somebody got close to me,
And my life completely changed.
Somebody left me to the bitter seasons,
And left me the memories of spring.
Somebody made promises to me,
And left me with a broken heart.
Somebody came into my dreams,
And left a thousand memories.
If you are wondering who was it?
That somebody was . . . .

Story by - Unknown

Aw sad

Aw sad
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Now looking at this pic ,i feel kind mean.
Bay was sad because i wouldn't buy him gatorade.. But Taz looks happy i guess.

Chocolate Skill Tester

Chocolate Skill Tester
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Now if the boys are with me when i go shopping,it takes much longer.Although i rarely give them money for toy skill testers or chocolate skill testers .Because i think that most skill testers are crappy.

Belmont City Centre

Belmont City Centre
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Actually spelt Belmont Citi Centre
Anyways i like the shopping centre because it is on one level and i can zip in and out .....Unless of course the boys are with me ...

Wow it was so cold i had to sit right in front of the heater and now i am so tired.Plus it is way past my zzz time, school holidays start next week .I have no plans for the holidays as the weather is getting too cold ,just wanna hibernate " if only i could be a bear .Actually tomorrow i am enrolling at the Power business Institute , time to do some study.So just though i'd say if i haven't logged by,it's because life has been a little hectic lately .I guess i will be kinda busy in the coming weeks,so i am going to blog on fridays or saturdays ...... Well that is what i think i will do, who knows i might get bored and blog at other times. Well im gonna upload a few pics on flicker and here then i am off to bed tcz all

sweet dreams

Full House

Sis and Emilio arrived Saturday night , it was good good to have some time together.Nick and Jess also came and stayed so it was a full house.I actually realised wow i will need a bigger home one day" when i am a nanny hehe.Yesterday was sis's birthday ,we didn't really celebrate her birthday.Although i did give her a bd card and gifts,but she left by lunch time to go back to Sydney
as Emilio's nan is seriuosly ill with cancer .The cancer was diagnosed and removed a couple of weeks ago,but her condition has worsened and sadly she has little time left.

May the Lord watch over her

Inner Voice

Inner Voice

Last night i was out the front ,,thinking i let Emilio and Skye to drive Em to school.I had this thought that they'd be
in a car accident.I couldn't get the thoughts outta my head.I told myself "Don't think negative thoughts.this morning when they were going to drive Em to school those thoughts were still with me, again i said to myself 99% of the time i go with my inner thoughts and change plans.But today i didn't , no i convinced myself not to be negative,and i let them drive her to school,They said they were going to maccas first , they left around 8.20am i left around 8.55am to take the boys, i thought they should be back.After arriving back home the thoughts were with me,that they'd had and accident.I was worried .Then Emilio walked inside, i knew then i was right,i just stood looking at him while he said they'd been in and accident on the highway but they are all ok.He told me he wasn't in the wrong that a lady failed to give way to him,her car had hit the passenger's side doors mainly Skye's door and apparently her front guard had came totally off .Em said she was so scared and thought it was gonna come through her window.I had prayed for their safety this morning,i am glad my prayers were answered.

Why do drunks sing

Damn the neighbours behind my home have been partying ,for hours and hours.Stupid drunks one guy has been singing " um i think that is what his trying to do.Damn goober can't sing for crap,
and i can't go to sleep in my room becoz he won't shut up. My bedroom faces their court yard ,their apartment is higher then mine. My goodness i wish they'd put him in a taxi and send him to the never never land.Okz i think i will sleep in Joey's room ,at least i might get to sleep .

Have a gr8 weekend n tcz

Stand by you....To My Children ...My Friends

Stand by you
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Oh, why you look so sad? The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
But don't, be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
'Cause I've been in the dark side too
When the night falls on you, and you don't know what to do
Nothing you confess, could make me love you less

stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you, I'll stand byStand by you you

So, if you're mad, get mad, don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too
Well, I'm a lot like you
When you're standing
At the crossroads, but don't know, which path to choose
Let me come along, 'cause even if you're wrong
(repeat 1)

2-Take me in to, your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you, I'll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone, you won't be on your own
(rpt 1, 2, 1...)
--
I'll Stand By You Lyrics
Artist: The Pretenders

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Footprints

Footprints
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Footprints
Also Known As "I Had a Dream"

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."

Margaret Fishback Powers, 1964

Thinking

Thinking of you
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

A quote

When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child.
Sophia Loren

I think for each child

sweetspirit's bug

sweetspirit's bug
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Do you know what kind of bug this is?

Everybody Loves Emilio

Everybody Loves Emilio
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Yes we do hehe, well my boys think his gr8 .Why because he brings them ps2 games and most important he takes them to the park to play footy. Yeah after driving 150 kms and then going to Nicks also another 60 kms .Emilio will take the boys to play footy before he drives the 150 kms back to Sydney.
Not too mention takes us out for lunch , yes his sweety but most important he treats everyone nice :)

Yucky tap water

Yucky tap water
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

How gross is this water ,,yuck,, Well i either have to boil the water first or go by spring bottled water.Okz i am sick og boiling water ,time to go buy bottled water. I so can't wait until the work across the road is finished and we have nice clear water again.

What else to do..but play ps2

What else to do..but play ps2
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What else to do..After a hard day at school ,but play ps2

naughty naughty Kitty

naughty naughty Kitty
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

How can i sketch or paint tsk tsk.How naughty putting her butt on my canvas

traveller profile quiz

What A Silly Quiz ... I got Party Animal haha ,,,as if ,, I don't drink alcohol..
Oh well im gonna continue reading Mindy's Blog then i am off to Newcastle to get the boys.
What kind of traveller am i really , hehe a lazy one.
Cheerz

Reading Blogs

I try to read all my fav blog during the week :) and at times i come across some i really like.
At around 2am this morning i was searching photos online and found a interesting blog ,
It's Mindy's blog she or was staying at Intekma Resort and has lots of photos on her blog.
Well i am gonna go check out a quiz she done and see what results i get hehe.
cheerz

The Special Two

Wow it seems to me that every where i am this song is playing.Driving home after dropping the boys off at access, the song was playing.I love the lyrics to this song, it was raining and i sat in the car listening to "The Special Two" my thoughts drifted into the past ,and i wondered how he is nowand what he was doing.Anyways then i came inside ahhh and of course The Special Two was on tv ,,,, Em really dislikes the song ,haha she was like oh nooooooooooooo.
Anyways here are the Lyrics to

The Special Two

"The Special Two" Missy Higgins Lyrics

I've hardly been outside my room in days,
'cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it's then I realize the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life:
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to you wake completely lost.
But I will fight for you, be sure that
I will fight until we're the special two once again.

And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
Our hands would not be taught to hold another's,
When we were the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'd bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need another,
'Cause we were the special two.

I remember someone old once said to me:
"Lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.
So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind you know I will not
Let you down 'cause we were the special two, and will be again.

And we will only need each other, we'll breathe together,
Our hands will not be taught to need another's,
When we're the special two.
And we could only see each other we'll bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need another...

I step outside my mind's eye's for a minute.
And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,
Or something that could ease the pain.
But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,
Just remembering, just remembering how we were...

The impossible Dream (The Quest) Lyrics

To dream the impossible dream,
To fight the unbeatable foe,
To bear with unbearable sorrow,
To run where the brave dare not go.

To right the unrightable wrong,
To love pure and chaste from afar,
To try when your arms are too weary,
To reach the unreachable star.

This is my quest,
To follow that star --
No matter how hopeless,
No matter how far.

To fight for the right
Without question or pause,
To be willing to march
Into hell for a heavenly cause.

And I know if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will be peaceful and calm
when I'm laid to my rest.

And the world will be better for this,
that one man scorned and covered with scars
still strove with his last ounce of courage.
To reach the unreachable star.

Andy Williams

I must say i like some of his lyrics ..songs..

But Speak Softly Love ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,is my fav
Speak softly, love and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words, the tender trembling moments start
We're in a world, our very own
Sharing a love that only few have ever known

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one

Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all because
You came into my world with love so softly love

(instrumental interlude>

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one

Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all becau-au-se
You came into my world with love so softly love

Winter

It certainly is a cold day, i guess that is what winter is all about .Until now the days have been ok around 21 deg, but i am sure it is like 10 deg outside breeey.I have to go out and i just want to hibernate :(. I only realised today that if i don't go to Sydney on the 21st of this month,i won't see sissy on her bd.Now what to do guess i should start to make some plans for Sissy's bd on the 21st June, the shortest day of the year.In Oz " Sydney" the sun will rise at 7 am and set at4.54 pm
yes a short day compared to the longest day which is December 21st .Actually i am glad daylight saving is months away, but yet i love spring and summer. Well i better go shopping before it's dark tsk tsk ,it seems much colder once darkness falls.Okz im outta here
cheerz

Broken Dreams Finding yourself

What is a broken dream ? One that we create in our mind our thoughts that never comes true.
Someone once asked me "What is your dream? Well i didn't know what to say, after all i was still trying to find myself.Although i had been single for three yrs ,but coming out of a violent relationship meant i had find me again.Why because when one leaves a violent relationship self esteem is very low, as the other person usually has lead you to believe your not worthy of anything.
So the question What is your dream ? I didn't have one as i was finding myself again ,constantly having less and less to do with the other person.So of course all i wanted was to not have to see the other person ever, and to be a good mum.But that is not a dream ,that is just a normal thing.

Anyway Someone the person who asked what was my dream, became a very good friend .
He helped me through soo much maybe things he isn't even aware of.Anyway time passed by and
that someone became my online bf , yeah crazy .But i built dreams around him ,in actually fact i built everything around his dreams tsk tsk. Then one day almost 3 yrs later the dream was gone , there was no longer the one day we will meet or one day we will be together. It was all gone just nothing ,no goodbye no nothing.
Anyway so now i find myself finding myself again , i use to be a one day at time person .I never liked to plan for anything because then i couldn't be disappointed if things didn't turn out the way i had planned.

Wow i have changed i now plan for so many different things , and it is good for me. I told my daughter on Monday ,that we cannot build your life around one person as i see her building her life totally around " Emilio". You must have friends in your life ,make new friends in Sydney because you need to have your own circle of friends .

Anyways the point i was trying to make before i got side tracked " blogging n chatting at same time. It's good to have a dream or to plan for some things in the future and at my age , i can plan these things for just me.I don't need to have a partner to feel complete , i just need to have family and friends.

cheers tcz

How often do you listen to music or ya fav cd ?

I couldn't go a day tsk tsk , not a day passes by that i don't listening to midi files or cd's whatever.
Music soothes the soul hmm i don't know about that, i think sad songs make me sad and upbeat songs make me wanna dance haha no matter where i am. Certain songs remind me of certain people who have come into my life and left there and some that have stayed.Of course some songs remind me of certain times in my childrens lives ,just times we have shared.

When i was little i use to always sing chewy chewy

Of course time passes by so quickly ,and we grow and change .

I love so many different styles of music, i think it really depends on myt mood what i listen too.

Also i believe what is happening in my life reflects ,the music i am listening too.Although right now i am listening too "Always on my mind" midi on Lones Midi site
Btw Lone you never told me why you have that midi on Joe blog gems ?
On monday i was at Charlestown square of course music was playing, in oz every shopping centre has music playing.As i sat down near the cafe Cindy Lauper's " True clours " was playing
I was taken back to another time , i remembered when Joe blogged about"she bop".Of course we learn something new every day, i never knew what that song was about until then,But i remembered asking Joe if he liked true colours .I like most of Cindy Lauper's song's , actually at that time Joe said he was listening too "All i ask of you" it certainly is a beautiful song.

Another Sarah Brightman song i like is "Time to say goodbye"

Well i never say goodbye so i shall say , cya
And leave you the lyric's " Still " i am sure most of us could relate to the lyrics

Still
The Commodores(Lionel Richie)

Lady, Morning's just a moment away,
And I'm without you once again,
You laughed at me,
You said you didn't need me,
I wonder if you need me now,

So many dreams that flew away,
So many words we didn't say,
Two people lost in a storm,
Where did we go?
Where'd we go?

We lost what we both had found,
You know we let each other down,
But then most of all,
I Do Love You,
Still……………

We played the games that people play,
We made our mistakes along the way,
Somehow I know deep in my heart,
You needed me,
'Cause I needed you so desperately!

We were too blind to see,
But then most of all,
I Do Love You,
Still…………..

tcz

21 Questions n Answers all about me

What is your dream? It's a secret

What is your favorite food? asian,Italian,lebanese,greek,aussie

What is your favorite colour? Black

What is your favorite number? 6

What is your favorite book? Jessica

What is your favorite movie? Ghost

What is your favorite song? November Rain

What is one thing that you really dislike? People who lie

What comes after family in your life as the next most important? Friends

Whats is your favorite season? I love summer

What things do you like ? walking in the rain, watching the sun rise and set

What are you favorite places? beach,Lake, rainforests

What do you dislike in people. ? I dislike ignorant males and rude females /males

What do you like in people? to be straight forward "tell it as it is"

What type of nationality do you think is most attractive? Any that are dark

What is your favorite animal ? the male species haha just joking,,, the cat

What is one regret you have? I have a few

What is one of your regret's ? Curiosity killed the cat

What do you think you'll be doing in ten years time " hypotheticly speaking"? Well i won't be living here , that is the one thing i know.

Bad Boys

What is it that makes bad boys more attractive .Not that i like bad boys haha or bad guys,i think it's just a thing .Bad guys aren't boring ,should i say aren't as boring as good guyz hehe.Well if i think back to my youth , i can recall i had a lot of good guy friends.But that is exactly what they were friends, i also had a few bad guy friends well not really bad but naughty haha.After all is said and done i guess good or naughty they were all just friends.
Okz yes i was bored n blogged this tsk tsk

Bored

Well i never thought that i would become bored with being online.Maybe i just can't decide what to do, i was going to change rooms with the boys and let them have my bedroom.Hmmm but if i do that Em will be unhappy because the boys will have the best room ,with walkin robe and ensuite.
Plus it is a lot of work changing or swapping rooms.Maybe i will just start a new canvas ,considering i went and bought some art supplies today.I really miss going to the art studio :( the interaction with others .I really should just get off my butt and start going back to the studio,even if it's only once a week.Okz im going to log off and decide cheers .

Naughty Kitty

Naughty Kitty
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

This is persian our naughty kitty.She is the jigsaw puzzle destroyer haha.She is also my alarm clock tsk tsk ,climbs all over me first thing in the morning.Yes she is first i see in the morning because she smooches my face and climbs all over me,of course only because she wants her breakfast.Haha she is like having a baby that needs a bottle at 6am tsk tsk.At least i can tell her to wait n go back to bed,yeah she has her own bed.

jigsaw puzzle

jigsaw puzzle
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Joe and i put this jigsaw puzzle together about ten days ago.It was time consuming plus we had a naughty kitty ,that thought she should play with it every morning.
When was the last time you done a jigsaw puzzle?

Roast Dinner Anyone

Roast Dinner Anyone
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

This is your typical sunday roast,yummy.Actually i smother mine with gravy.

Doh 60 minutes

40600002
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

I just received a txt from sis ."Hi mum were about to leave coming to see you be there soon." sis and Emilio just left they'll be here in 60 minutes .Oh and i was reading my fav blogs ,checking my work assignments for the week tsk tsk.I haven't done n e work this morning .Oh well was gonna blog about other things but i must log off and clean my dumpster haha ,yes i am naughty and haven't done the breakfast dishes grrrrr .Oks i now have 51 minutes to do a super sonic clean up b4 they arrive.
cheerz everyone

nicky neigbours

nicky neigbours
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Just a shot of the other side of the river.

sweetspirit Nicks place

sweetspirit nicks place
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

See the tiny island haha im gonna build a bungalow out there and live on it hehe jj.
Oh yeah i put my hair up considering it was a shocker,actually 99.99 % of the time i wear my hair up .

Nick n Garfield

nick n garfield
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

This is there backyard as well as the neigbuors,, no fences :) so beautiful

bad hair day

bad hair day
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

Went to Nick's place to stay last night.It is so beautiful i could actually move out to the never nevers and live there.Actually i had a rotten headache since about 9pm last night ,so i felt like crap today .But is was so beautiful i had to go and check out there back yard ,which is on the river.

sweetspirit's owl

sweetspirit's owl
Originally uploaded by sweetspirit.

This is my newest friend hehe.Well i love being outside at night star gazing ect.Oh yeah im a little crazy i talk to the animals hehe.Well my friend owl ,was so good the other night s/he let me take so many photos :) i'll post a few other shots next week.I've been heaps busy with family and always trying to create .

Biological agent sent to Indonesian embassy in Canberra

For full story

Oh this story has more information smh

I find it hard to believe this has actually happened in Oz .I truely hope it has nothing to do with the Schapelle case .Honestly the media has gone crazy ,there maybe ppl that were unhappy with the verdict .But the crime happened in Indonesia not Australia ,so it is not up to Australia or aussies to make the judgement.

sweetspirits dayz nightz destiny desire

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Hyundai FX Rd 11

Ford Falcon AU

Toyota Sera,

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Cold Rain

Saturday, June 25, 2005

And This

Friday, June 24, 2005

I Like This

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Aw sad

Chocolate Skill Tester

Belmont City Centre

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Full House

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Inner Voice

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Why do drunks sing

Friday, June 17, 2005

Stand by you....To My Children ...My Friends

Footprints

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Thinking

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

sweetspirit's bug

Everybody Loves Emilio

Yucky tap water

Monday, June 13, 2005

What else to do..but play ps2

naughty naughty Kitty

Sunday, June 12, 2005

traveller profile quiz

Reading Blogs

The Special Two

The impossible Dream (The Quest) Lyrics

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Winter

Friday, June 10, 2005

Broken Dreams Finding yourself

How often do you listen to music or ya fav cd ?

21 Questions n Answers all about me

Bad Boys

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Bored

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Naughty Kitty

jigsaw puzzle

Roast Dinner Anyone

Monday, June 06, 2005

Doh 60 minutes

Saturday, June 04, 2005

nicky neigbours

sweetspirit Nicks place

Nick n Garfield

bad hair day

Friday, June 03, 2005

sweetspirit's owl

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Biological agent sent to Indonesian embassy in Canberra

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