sweetspirits dayz nightz destiny desire: September 2015

Be Different Be You

The Difference

I guess everyone is at times guilty of either having time or making time for another person .

I most certainly have changed over the years , I definitely would clear thing to make time for others , but now I am older I simply give as much as I receive !

I made mistakes making people a priority when all I was to the other a convenience , one can go through life with acquaintances even friends that
only talk to you when they feel like it you are just a convenience to talk to when they've nothing or no one else to talk too or everyone else is just sick of the persons complaining lol and you are the lucky last to hear it .

Now If people bother with me after the expiry date of my last correspondence my reply rate will become less an less until I truly don't feel obligated to reply .

I use always reply to people straight away but now I hardly bother replying to anyone , I think I am a recluse live in my own space lol piano , art , my cat .

I wouldn't have it any other way this is my life and very few are welcome .

If someone has to find time to book you in it's time to book out

don't be treated like a client if your not doing business !

Toilet Roll

I'm sooo sick but managed to have a toilet roll dodgem game with Boo , omg it's pouring down and he wants Macca's yuck !

But considering I love him and my disprin are starting to work , I'll do a Macca's run .

Aussie Dollar

The aussie dollar is just simply crap !

Won't Be Visiting KL Dear Desi

I have to wonder why it states just today , kinda stupid !

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Flu's N Feeling sick

Omg as in oh my goodness I have been sick for weeks !

Yeah I try not to mean omg as in gawd ! I have this crap flu
and get about 3 hrs sleep per day n little exercise grrr , right now
I'm bored as nothing on Foxtel waste of $ and well the net is as boring fk .

Facebook is stupid so close to deleting my account if I didn't use it to login to
networking pages I wouldn't use it at all .

I much prefer the good old days of surfing the net , less ads , less crap .
Right now I'm waiting for the supermarket to open grrr , if some fwit didn't hold it up 9 months ago it would have been still open at 11pm but no now closes at 10pm .

Coles opens at 6am and Woolworths opens at 8am my bedtime , well kinda
yesterday i slept for 3 hrs 5.30pm until 8.30pm , but I was too sick to go shopping and it was raining so heavy so i stayed in my futon all day .

Stuff going to bed I always sleep on my futon with my cat as my neighbour is so fking annoying seriously as soon as she wakes up I swear she is connected to her mobile like life support gas bagging about anything and anyone !

she is the most annoying neighbour always on her mobile complaining about ppl
haha some days I feel like saying Lady listen to yourself ! she wakes me more than all the critters in the bush land opposite my house and there is a lot od noisy critters over there !

Anyway killed some time blogging 3 hrs until woolworths opens oh the agony lol I just want eucalyptus lollies ! Oh and tea hmmm I only ever drink tea when i have a really bad flu , I don't like tea .

Well feeling like crap more medicine and I should study a bit more hmm maybe not . I need rest and eucalyptus lollies !

leave me alone

I love this song !

"Leave Me Alone" HOPSIN
[Chorus:]
Now, everybody who knows me understands I'm a humble guy,
Those who thinking they own me,
Just do me a favor, leave me the fuck alone,
Leave me the fuck alone, leave me the fuck alone,
Leave me the fuck alone, leave me the fuck alone,
Just leave me the fuck alone, leave me the fuck alone,
Leave me the fuck alone, leave me the fuck alone,
Leave me the fuck alone, oooo I regret meeting all of you.

[Verse 1:]
Lately how much psychotic stress have you been through,
Right now I hate every fucking body including you,
I'm on the edge you'll be lucky if you do get through,
If I go crazy then this the song I'm a lose it to.
Please tell my family and my friends this...
I was never happy to begin with, I actually pretended.
To many hands I done lifted, all my life plans got evicted, I'm mad I existed.
I'm finally dropping all the shit you motherfuckers hand me,
The only girl I ever loved doesn't understand me.
Since I was young I tried to be way more than what I can be
And people still never show respect when I demand it.
Y'all mentality is fuck me but I don't need nobody but me.
Trust me, it don't seem like it but I been living out the matrix.
Face it, I'm a lot smarter than you think bitch.

[Chorus]

[Verse 2:]
Everyday it's like the same crap,
What if I died and never came back.
You'd hate that wouldn't you.
I'm a put a blade to your neck, push it through.
Quit telling me shit that I shouldn't do. Ooooh...
I been blocking my feelings but now I can't hide em.
Been looking for God how come I can't find him.
Nothing in my fucking world seems to go right,
Even though I hate suicide I need to go try.
I live my life the way I wanna, I ain't pleasing you,
Got a problem I'll fuck you up I got a reason to.
Y'all tried to gain my trust saying we believe in you.
Then you walking on me after all that we been through,
That ain't even cool, now death is what I hope you get,
And just remember that I told you this...
We ain't cool, I don't owe you shit,
Look what you made of me, now I'm... pshhh...
Matter fact just stay away from me.

[Chorus]

[Verse 3:]
What if I left this world today in this crucial pain that I'm In? (I'm In)
Would you be there at my funeral saying 'oh I loved him' (loved him)
Or maybe, just maybe, you'll be that one nigga that never showed up. (showed up)
I'm about to lose my mind, why must I have it so rough.
Listen closely as I'm rapping this,
I used to think money brought people happiness,
It does but we never think about what happens after it.
Since I got it, I started to learn hate, everybody turns fake.
Wanting shit like it's there fucking birthday,
And that just adds on the stress I'm already dealing with,
What am I supposed to let it build and sit.
Hell no, since then my fucking balls grew,
I said it once and I'll say it again fuck all you.

The best feeling in the world

The best feeling in the world !

Is not being in love or being loved !

It is when you have been so betrayed , mistreated , lied too and made feel it was all your fault .
But all along you knew once a liar always a liar , once a womanizer always a womanizer most liars that think they're getting away with what they are doing usually they just are fucking stupid and have the worst memories and get caught out time n time again and use new lies to try cover old lies coz they're just fukwits and the other party wants to live in denial for awhile , but knows the truth .

The best feeling in the world is when one knows she / he has been lied to all along by the above type .
The best feeling comes when you know you was right all along and that day you wake up and know there is not one minuscule feeling left and if that so called excuse for a human died , you just wouldn't give a fuck !

That is the best feeling in the world !