sweetspirits dayz nightz destiny desire: April 2006

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Listening 2

Where'd You Go - Fort Minor
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone

She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
Because your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so

I want you to know it's a little f...ed up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please
Come back home

You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I plan to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you

I want you to know it's a little f****ed up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

I want you to know it's a little f*&*ed up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debating
Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can say

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

Please Come back home

Please Come back home

Please Come back home

Please Come back home

Monday, April 24, 2006

THE LORD ANSWERED

THE LORD ANSWERED

Author: Anonymous

When Lord, I asked
Will my salvation be?
In prison, prison of mind,
Enslaved and shackled
By agony.

I once thought love was a mere myth,
Fantasy, existing only in ones deepest hopes.
Bitterness possessed me, I cried out to you
Lord for a clam spirit.
I begged and waited with bated breath
But my hopes grew dim, my soul
Became weary, my desires became dull.
My agony was consuming me all at once.

Just as I thought I could go no lower,
Suddenly in my darkness,
Appeared light. And from that light
Issued forth great intellect and understandings from
A divine source. That source being you, Lord.

You gave me the understanding that
Love was a reality that was possible
For any heart to feel and so
You sent me a precious love,
A love, which I hold so
Dear to my heart.

More precious than the finest materials
In existence and of splendid value
This love of mine you sent me.
I thank you Lord, for I love him so,
How I love him so?
Lord, only you so know.

The Forbidden Love

The Forbidden Love

Author: Anonymous

Oh, tell me, tell me what could this be,
Could this be love that enthralls me
Not just any emotion
But confidence, affection, and devotion
Miles apart days away
But this love chiseled in my heart will stay
Wanting to grasp you close to me
But knowing I cant oh why does this be
Caged, reaching out for you
So close and knowing you want this too
Illusions of love you and me
But knowing I have to hide this, bites like a bee
Yet the one thing that keeps us together
Destroy us and will never untether 
Yet in the reserve of our alone
You hold me dear and no one is touv known
Infatuation in every stroke and every kiss
When we are apart I fantasize of this
This love is too herculean to waste
So fare away yet close enough to taste
Longing to be with you all the time
Hungry for your heart to be one with mine
Take this hand and escort me to your ocean
Kiss me and fill me with your fragrant potion
One to make me winded make me week
That one takes all there life to seek
And at this age I have rescued love
You were sent from a glorified spirit above
Every time I glance at your eyes so pure and blue
I lose my senses and want to be retained by you
Craving to be in your arms, be held so tight
Yearning praying begging with all my might
But I know this in no way will be
You and me at once for all to see
This, this, what it could be
For this is forbbiden love that captivates me.

HAVE YOU EVER

HAVE YOU EVER

Author: Anonymous

Have you ever been around someone
and just couldn't think?
Have you ever been around someone
lips, soft as a rose's pink?
Have you ever been around someone
heart as vast as the open sea?
Have you ever been around someone
together forever you wish to be?
Have you ever been around someone
into their eyes you gaze?
Have you ever been around someone
piercing the soul like the sun's rays?
Have you ever been around someone
and chose to run and hide?
Have you ever been around someone
scared of what feelins are inside?

Have you ever.........

Sunday, April 23, 2006

24 The Game

24 The Game ,,, The Glitches

I had read the reviews on 24 The Game and told Joe no way i am not buying it .
First of of i thought it suxs as it is not multi-player .

Secondly reviews stated it was slapped together hmm .

Thirdly even people selling it on ebay said it was poor , damn if ya selling something on ebay
and saying the game is poor basicly crappy , how ya sell it hehe.

Anyways i received a bonus of 7 k hmm , now that made a slight difference .Yes i
could afford to go buy the game no worries .But i must say i never waste money
nor do i buy things just because i want them .I buy things we need , if it is not needed i don't buy.

Okz so it's school holidays and yes i did get a bonus, paid out my credits cards " yay".

Then bought 24 the game i must say i loved playing as Jack yes i really thought i was Jack until i failed the mission and cried im dead oh no ooo hehe.

I played as Chase and yes it was sooo kewl , but when you start level 23 or say between 4 pm and 5 pm the Glitches come and stuff up everything the game keeps freezing or in my case data was lost and files become corrupted .

Grrr so i spent days on the forums and searching reviews even borrowed neighbours ps2 then Chads ps2 which is new .No luck the glitches are in the game and i wasn't wasting n e more time trying to find ways to get it to work :(.

So last night i thought i am taking this game back.I have been buying games from Toys R US
for years and never had to return one .I wondered if it would be a problem because i know other stores aren't easy to get a exchange or refund on games.

Off to Toys R Us , i must say they were extremely nice i explained how the game kept freezing ect ..

I was given a refund and all is good although i would of liked to of been able to complete 24 :(
but cannot complete a game that keeps freezing.

Well i might go buy a scooter haha...

Monday, April 10, 2006

"BEAUTIFUL GOODBYE"

"BEAUTIFUL GOODBYE" by: Nick Lachey

I thought it was all in my head
But something felt wrong with my heart
And I was a fool to believe
That nothing could tear us apart
But little by little we changed
And maybe we'll never know why
Something is gone from my touch
And it's written deep in your eyes

(CHORUS):
We'd never be the way we were
So why are we trying to pretend
If we know it's gonna hurt
It's better left unsaid
You don't have to say a word
'Cause deep inside I already know
But you can't keep holding on
Just because I can't let go
It'll be alright, try not to cry
But you walk out my life
Just leave me with a beautiful goodbye

Forever is easy to say
But now my forever is gone
Can't you see nobody's right
And can't you see that nobody's wrong
I'm gonna miss what we had
And even though it's killing me
I gotta accept things the way that they are
And not the way that I wish they would be

Saturday, April 08, 2006

sweetspirit's Solitude

Walden chapter 5

I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude.

There is no place i'd rather be than at Pelican's Shore , it's my hide away
very few people know it exists .Next week Sis and Emilio will be up
for easter and we are taking Emile to Pelican :).

Solitude

I save my thoughts for lonely moments when
The pain that overwhelms the world with news
Often destroys ideals and dreams conceived
By precious minds, exposed to all the waste
Of shady worlds that fill them full of hate
And sin; it never seems to give relief.
And so my thoughts are saved for lonely hours,
When I have time to be in tune with songs
Of sunset's vibrant hues and tones, as well
As soft and gentle breezes cool and calm.

Stephanie Baker

Sunday, April 02, 2006

What A Gal Wants

Vivian asked me a number of times " What do you want in a man " You should write out
what you want .Hmm well i have been single so long and i'm not looking.

Write out what you what , i have thought about that a number of times lately after being asked.

I can recall once saying i expect nothing haha , for if one expects a person to be a certain way or do certain things .Well one is asking to be let down , i even once said to my former bf , i expect nothing
honestly he lived in KL what could i expect with a distance soo far by sight but near by heart.

Well years passed by and yes i did expect more than he gave , not material things.

Anyways one of my most fav movies is The Wedding Singer . yes i love that movie :)
i watched it last night for about the millionth time hehe.

I thought of of days gone by and lost love.I thought of Spikey whom is so sweet and i must touch base with him as it has been soo long.

Of course i thought of this song Spikey and I both had on our old blogs about 2 years ago.

Adam Sandler - I Wanna Grow Old With You Lyrics

I wanna make you smile
When you're feeling sad
Carry you around
When your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is
Grow old with you.
I'll get you medicine
when your tummy aches
Build you a fire
When the furnace breaks
It could be so nice
Growing old with you.
I'll miss you
I'll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
I need you
I'll feed you
Even let you hold the remote control
Let me do the dishes
In our kitchen sink
Put you to bed
When you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who
Grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

That is what i want :) oneday

Same Sun by Chris De Burgh

Same Sun Lyrics by Chris De Burgh

I cannot sleep tonight, I have you on my mind,
Even the wind is calling your name,
Though you are far away, I feel that you are near,
Whispering words from over the sea,
And if you wake in your night,remember that I will be here;

And like the same sun, that's rising on the valley with the dawn,
I will walk with your shadow and keep you warm,
And like the same moon, that's shining through my window here tonight,
I will watch in your darkness, and bring you safely to the morning light.

Where there is love like this, forever, for all time,
I will be there, wherever you lie,
And where there are hearts that live together in one soul,
Nothing on earth will keep us apart,
And if you're crying inside, remember that I will be here;

And like the same sun that's rising on the valley with the dawn,
I will walk with your shadow and keep you warm,
And like the same moon that's shining through my window here tonight,
I will watch in your darkness, and bring you safely to the morning light;
I Love you, I love you, I love you;

And if you're crying inside, remember that I will be here;

And like the same sun, that's rising on the valley with the dawn,
I will walk with your shadow and keep you warm,
And like the same moon that's shining through my window here tonight,
I will watch in your darkness and bring you safely to the morning light;

Same sun, same moon,
Same sun, same moon,
Same soul, same heart,
Same World, same stars - you will be forever in my world;

Same sun, same moon,
Same sun, same moon,
Same soul, same heart, oh, I love you I love you I love you,
Same world, same stars - you will be forever in my heart.

Why so many lyrics

So many lyrics on my blog hmm music soothes thy soul
sometimes i think i live and breath music hehe.

No i posted on the forums and people have been telling me their most fav song :)

Okz now i must check dinner before it burns tsk tsk, plus email Kyels
cheerz tcz

Delerium - Just A Dream

Delerium - Just A Dream (Featuring Margaret Far) Lyrics

Walking barefoot on the shore
Hypnotized by the ocean roaring
Thoughts of you drifting in and out
Never fails to calm me down

I still see your eyes when light hits the water
And I've never seen a color so beautiful
So blue... Ocean blue

I keep moving to the distant sounds
And visions of you drifting in and out
Clouds mixing with the sand and the sea
Sounds get carried on the ocean breeze

I still hear your voice from across the horizon
And wasn't that you walking into the shadows?

In time I'll believe it was just and illusion
In time I'll believe it was only a dream

I still see your eyes when light hits the water
And I've never seen a color so beautiful
I still hear your voice from across the horizon
And wasn't that you walking into the shadows?

In time I'll believe it was just and illusion
In time I'll believe it was only a dream
Till then I will breathe you in from the ocean
And walk with the waves rolling under my feet

Delerium - Love Lyrics

Delerium - Love Lyrics

Even my heart is
Broken in two...
Now I feel low sense of certainty
Can there ever be any guarantees in life?
Tell me

You ask yourself
What do you know?
I know I�ll always love you, baby...
And you'll ask me
How I feel about you
(I�ll tell you)???
I know I�ll always love you!

Even home
I feel whole often lost...
Feel low sense of safety,
Can there ever be any guarantees in life?
Tell me,
O-o-h tell me...

You ask yourself
What do you know?
I know I�ll always love you, baby...
And you'll ask me
How I feel about you
I know I�ll always love you!

I will take you away from the misery
(Yes I will take you away)
???
I dream each year,
that I have loved you...

Delerium - Innocente Lyrics

Delerium - Innocente Lyrics

You can't see my eyes
You can't see my eyes
They don't see yours
Hear me when I say
They don't mind at all

It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger or a ghost
It's the quiet of a storm approaching
That I fear the most
It's the pain that I hear coming
The slightest crystal tear, drops to the ground
In silence, when my love is near.
Darling, when did you fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did you fall? When was it over?

It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and then my lonesome song begins
It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song begins

Darling, when did you cry? I couldn't hear you
Darling when? When did you cry? I couldn't hear you

I suppose it is the price of falling in love
I suppose it is the price of falling in love

It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger, not a ghost
Of the quiet of a storm approaching
That i fear the most
It's the pain that i hear coming

The slightest crystal tear drops to the ground
In silence when my love is near
It's marching through my door now the stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song will end

Darling when did we fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did we fall? When was it over?

I suppose it is the price of falling in love.
(4x)
I fear that it's the price of falling in love.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

APRIL FOOL'S DAY Bryce Courtenay

As the sun set for the coming night my mind has been consumed these past two days and nights by thoughts of Bryce Courtenay and APRIL FOOL'S DAY .

Yes today was APRIL FOOL'S DAY ,for some people it is a day of MORNING pranks.

For others it is a day of reflection and mourning .Today is the anniversary of Damon Courtenay's passing . APRIL FOOLS DAY is Damon's book , it is not just a book not to me.

To me it is a part of the existence of a strong courageous young boy /young man.

I can relate so much to APRIL FOOLS DAY it is like, it touched my inner soul.

Is it the fact that Bryce Courtenay can write so brilliantly or the fact that one can relate
to so many written words.

I guess it is both because a book cannot tell the whole story of one's life or the thoughts of one's mind and innerself.

Bryce Courtenay's written words can take my mind to another time another place .

It is the connection of certain thoughts and experiences that draws me into another place
another time.

Today i thought as i have many times if there was one person in this world i would like to meet
it would be Bryce Courtenay , a chat over coffee would be intriguing meeting of minds.

As it turns out a charity luncheon is being held on the 28th of this month , i hope i can make it.

I think thats all from me , because as i stated APRIL FOOLS DAY ,,,,,,,,, Touched my inner soul

How Sweet

Well as some of my fellow bloggers know i sell on ebay , yes things i am ever updating or no longer keeping.

So time has pasted and sweets whom has kept all her baby things hehe in case haha.

Okz now i know i won't be having any babies and i am not keeping things for when i become a nanny.

So because my baby things are in almost new condition , yes i have been selling them on ebay.

Now i get nice feedback,,lovely pleasure to deal with gr8 ebayer blah blah yeah im so nice :).

Well when during business and welcoming strangers into my home to veiw what item is for sale
of course i treat them how i'd like to be treated and that is welcomed.

I must say i am lucky first to see always buys muah how sweet is that hehe.

Anyways today i sold a three in one high chair to a very lovely lady .

Now i was about to go lay down with my baby boy Bay whom has a dreadful black eye :(.

Just mail Sabby and checked my mail .

I thought this was very nice of Anna

Hi Libbie,

Just wanted to tell you that Tom, my bub, is sitting well in the high chair

and it's perfect for him.

Thanks again

Anna

Now thats nice...
okz what next to sell arrh the Barbie Lamborghini ,,,