Ever wonder why people say there is plenty of fish in the sea , when one breaks up with another .
It's kinda silly , i mean who wants to date a fish he he.
Well I've been single for so long now and haven't dated or met anyone in the real world , for 11 years .
I have and always will put my children first .Although i chat with ppl and had a online relationship for three years , but that ended four years ago .
Still I'm single and haven't met anyone . I ask myself am i too fussy ? The answer is no , I am wiser now , than what i was at 18 and yet wiser than when i had my cyber relationship . I know now when i don't like a persons attitude to just move on and not waste my time by being nice to someone who isn't nice .
So where do i go from here ? What am i really looking for ?
I think when one leaves a relationship and there is no love left , that is hard but much easier to close that chapter of your life and move on .
Closing the chapter of my life with my children's father was only hard because he just wouldn't let me be until a few years ago .
I mean it was like fourteen years of crap and then another six years of finding peace and finally being left alone .
Life is good now and has been for a few years of course we all have scars from the past , some heal some don't .
But we all must move on , it is harder to move on when you still love the other .
I know when my online relationship ended i was devastated and for years anyone that was interested in me annoyed me .
I constantly compared guys to him , because i guess it was him i wanted to be with no one else .
Now four years have passed by and i still ask myself what am i looking for ?
Maybe i am not really looking , what i don't like is when guys address me with
hey beautiful or hey gorgeous .
I don't like that because that is not my name , maybe i am a prude .
Well i signed up at plenty of fish a few months ago , my children say
they'd like me to have a boyfriend so they could have someone to play soccer with he he . If only it was that easy , i honestly think i should wait until they've grown up.
Actually it's funny though because when i do make a new chat friend seems he must like soccer.I ask myself am i looking for a bf or someone for the boys to play soccer with he he .
I know it's hard for them as their dad has no role in their life at all , he doesn't see them at all .
They use to always say , Wish i had a dad , and I'd say you do have a dad .
The reply would be he is not dad , a real dad would want to spend time with us , all he cares about is himself and being with his mates drinking an partying.
Well that is one thing i cannot change .
I don't know what i am really looking for , guess it's some one who likes me for who i am .
Well that's the thoughts in my head for today :)