Seasons Of Love - Friendship
Seasons Of Love are merely reflections of time . One could turn and hourglass 1000 or one million times . How much one loves another is time irrelevant . For a person could be part of your life for months years or only a few weeks it is the bond of love that forms that touches your inner soul / heart . I recall reading a poem years ago about the seasons of love and writting my own version of seasons of love . Although 14 years have passed by and I still cannot find the original Seasons Of Love Poem. I believe people do come into our lives for a reason and no matter how long or short their stay . If people are bad or good we certainly learn from the good the bad the ugly as in horrible people. We are blessed for the ones that stay ( Desi ) . I read today the story of a young woman that fell in love withwho she thought was Mr Perfect ( the coward ). I'm going to link her story I'm not going to blog about it in particular because my ? is what did she learn from that relationship and why did she even have to experience it . Yes the good the bad the ugly . I certainly can relate to the good the bad the ugly . My last relationship Lasted a few years and ended almost 11 years ago . Lets look back ph at first he was nice made me feel special . But within a few months made me feel like crap , things he done to make me feel like crap. We'd be chatting and he's say he had to go n sign out of chat , next day oh sorry but my friends came to the office so i had to log out. Would say he is going to call but didnt , would say we will chat online but not turn up . Would ignore me for weeks on end and when i stopped trying to contact him to see if he was ok . He would start to correspond . Always excuses oh I had relatives over and couldnt talk to you . I'm coming to see you , oh wait sep 11th I cant no one is leaving their family . Nothing for one month then an email Oh I went to africa for work but couldnt tell u plus i had no money to send u a postcard. Hmmm so many red lights especially when at times you didnt recall things we'd spoken about , it was like a few people were playing games . Then oh I'm sending you a birthday present , ( it never came ) . Once again I'm coming to see you . Oh i can't there has been a death in the family . Then a weird sms message I can't call you or be on chat we have a bad storm , then i received a sms ( happy 25th anniversay) I question why u sent it . Several days later , you said your cousin sent it to his wife . One would think your so called cousin married for 25 yrs would have his own cell phone but not only that he would be with his wife at 9pm on their 25th anniversay. Oh the list is endless the signs were always there , but I held onto the fantasy of you and being with you , until in the end when you continued to ignore me and just as i let go you'd message me outta the blue after 4 months had passed . I was inlove with the fantasy you told me you wanted to marry me and i didnt ever want to lose you . I loved how you sanf to me more than words unchained melody . Oh the wonder of you :) yes I was under your spell . What a player you played me like a magicians trick deck your cards were never real nor was your love , Although some days I believe it was , the cards , the gifts , the photos I've kept them all these years I finally shed no more tears . I never wanted gifts I just wanted you but still curious of the gift I never received ;). The seasons of love in my life stopped the year when I shed my last tear for you . I've stayed single it's so much easier to just have seasons of life .
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