sweetspirits dayz nightz destiny desire: February 2008

Plenty Of Fish , In The Sea

Ever wonder why people say there is plenty of fish in the sea , when one breaks up with another .
It's kinda silly , i mean who wants to date a fish he he.

Well I've been single for so long now and haven't dated or met anyone in the real world , for 11 years .

I have and always will put my children first .Although i chat with ppl and had a online relationship for three years , but that ended four years ago .

Still I'm single and haven't met anyone . I ask myself am i too fussy ? The answer is no , I am wiser now , than what i was at 18 and yet wiser than when i had my cyber relationship . I know now when i don't like a persons attitude to just move on and not waste my time by being nice to someone who isn't nice .

So where do i go from here ? What am i really looking for ?

I think when one leaves a relationship and there is no love left , that is hard but much easier to close that chapter of your life and move on .

Closing the chapter of my life with my children's father was only hard because he just wouldn't let me be until a few years ago .

I mean it was like fourteen years of crap and then another six years of finding peace and finally being left alone .

Life is good now and has been for a few years of course we all have scars from the past , some heal some don't .

But we all must move on , it is harder to move on when you still love the other .

I know when my online relationship ended i was devastated and for years anyone that was interested in me annoyed me .

I constantly compared guys to him , because i guess it was him i wanted to be with no one else .

Now four years have passed by and i still ask myself what am i looking for ?
Maybe i am not really looking , what i don't like is when guys address me with
hey beautiful or hey gorgeous .

I don't like that because that is not my name , maybe i am a prude .

Well i signed up at plenty of fish a few months ago , my children say
they'd like me to have a boyfriend so they could have someone to play soccer with he he . If only it was that easy , i honestly think i should wait until they've grown up.

Actually it's funny though because when i do make a new chat friend seems he must like soccer.I ask myself am i looking for a bf or someone for the boys to play soccer with he he .

I know it's hard for them as their dad has no role in their life at all , he doesn't see them at all .

They use to always say , Wish i had a dad , and I'd say you do have a dad .
The reply would be he is not dad , a real dad would want to spend time with us , all he cares about is himself and being with his mates drinking an partying.

Well that is one thing i cannot change .

I don't know what i am really looking for , guess it's some one who likes me for who i am .

Well that's the thoughts in my head for today :)

Labels: in the sea, Life Path, love, plenty of fish

Flu Season

Well as sit here with thoughts of a million other things i could be doing .
The rain keeps coming down , seems like it's been raining forever .
I do love the rain and walking in the rain especially along the beach.

This morning i had to cancel a appointment for the second time , it's flu season .
I really thought Paradox would be annoyed with me as this was the second time i had canceled because one of my children were sick , well Joey is sick with the flu now .
I will take Emmy in next week , no matter what happens .

Pictures Of You - The Last Goodnight

I luvvvvv this song

The Last Goodnight - Pictures Of You lyrics

Labels: pictures of you - the last goodnight .. luv this song

Magic Hands Ewwww

Today I went for a massage at Magic Hands , it was suppose to be for neck n shoulders , but they gal done my back n butt eewww that was freaky .I wanted to say hello that's not my shoulders eeww ..

Well i don't think I'll go there again , i honestly don't like gals rubbing my butt he he ..

Jokes aside it was eeewwy .Geez no one has touched my butt in over a decade .
When ya think ya getting neck n shoulders massage and some sumo chick rubs ya butt it's freaky.

Well Bj offered to give me my next massage tsk tsk BJ can go massage a potato lol.

Anyways Supre sux they're rip offs , they have sales and make downs but charge the higher price and then won't give the lowest price or refund .,

Yay the Jets won yippee for Newcastle Jets.

I have a full on busy week ahead eeewwwey.

Labels: busy bee me week, Magic Hands, Supre sux rip offs, Yayz the Newcastle Jets

Somebodys Me

:) Luv It , i need sleep zzzzzz

Labels: Enrique Iglesias Somebodys Me

Forget Me Not

Labels: Fading Memory . Lost, Forget Me Not

Friendship .. You'll Be In My Heart

Real friendship
forever

Labels: friendship

Wet Weather N Loonies

Well i'm in a hmmm mood . It's been raining for seems like forever . I luv the rain , walking in the rain . But not driving in the rain , it's when all the loonies well some ppl drive like loonies trying to get from a to b asap. Yesterday was the pitts i almost had 3 accidents bcoz of ppl failling to give way to me . Lucky my breaks are okz in the wet , geez in one incident i ended up on the other side of the road , lucky there was no oncoming traffic . In the past 5 weeks i've had so many well like 11 really close calls , i rarely swear . Not even when i've had my foot broken or when it was severed , i didn't swear. But yesterday geez sweetspirit no more .

Labels: close calls, loonies, rain, wet weather