sweetspirits dayz nightz destiny desire: March 2006

Friday, March 31, 2006

Circle Of Life In Cyber Space

Looking up into the stars at night i think to myself , as i often do .Yes my mind is mine as are my thoughts.
So often i think back little things remind me of days nights gone by , star gazing is a soul soothing time
for me , i actually swapped rooms with the boys , yes they have have my room with ensuite ect .Arhh
but i have their room and at night i can open the blinds and lay in bed and do some star gazing , i love it.
Now in my old room i couldn't do that because the townhouses behind my townhouse.Well my bedroom window faces their
loungeroom and they can see straight into my bedroom grrr. So i couldn't open my blinds for my neighbours
could see straight into my bedroom.

Anyways i was thinking of cyber friends Vivian has become a very special friend to me since last year.
Sometimes in life good and bad things can happen , i believe they happen for a reason and what is meant to be
will be.Sometimes friendships or relationships are lost and new ones formed. I know that if certain friendships or
relationships weren't lost or left ,then certainly some new ones wouldn't be formed .

Well i have soooo soooo sooo much i could blog about , but it seems now i am reverting back to me. The me that was
five years ago .Ha ha im five years younger tehe , no in truth i am a very private person .Blogging has been a release
and a burden at times , but i was just filling a missing void or maybe living in a fantasy hmmmm.

I can say life is good and yes we move back to move forward at times :) but most important is we move forward
and live and love like there is no tomorrow , yeah right. If only we didn't take anyone for granted :).

Okz now back to what i was going to blog about cyber friends just like friends in the real world come and go
we link up on common thoughts , sometimes we agree sometimes we don't. We may drift but there is a connection that can last years .Anyways i am drifting from this to that so its time i went for a bath. Hmmm wanna take a bath

Which reminds me of a song i liked many moons ago :) Yes Pink Floyd

Wish You Were Here (Waters, Gilmour) 5:17

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Mother (Waters) 5:32

Mother do you think they'll drop the bomb?
Mother do you think they'll like this song?
Mother do you think they'll try to break my balls?
Mother should I build the wall?
Mother should I run for president?
Mother should I trust the government?
Mother will they put me in the firing line?
Mother am I really dying?

Hush now baby, baby, dont you cry.
Mother's gonna make all your nightmares come true.
Mother's gonna put all her fears into you.
Mother's gonna keep you right here under her wing.
She wont let you fly, but she might let you sing.
Mama will keep baby cozy and warm.
Ooooh baby ooooh baby oooooh baby,
Of course mama'll help to build the wall.

Mother do you think she's good enough -- to me?
Mother do you think she's dangerous -- to me?
Mother will she tear your little boy apart?
Mother will she break my heart?

Hush now baby, baby dont you cry.
Mama's gonna check out all your girlfriends for you.
Mama wont let anyone dirty get through.
Mama's gonna wait up until you get in.
Mama will always find out where you've been.
Mama's gonna keep baby healthy and clean.
Ooooh baby oooh baby oooh baby,
You'll always be baby to me.

Mother, did it need to be so high?

7 reasons not to mess with children. :)

7 reasons not to mess with children.

A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales.  The teacher said

it

was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even

though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small.

The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale.  Irritated,

the

teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was

physically impossible.

The little girl said, "When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah".

The teacher asked, "What if Jonah went to hell?"

The little girl replied, "Then you ask him".

A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they

were drawing. She would occasionally walk around to see each child's work.

As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked what

the drawing was.

The girl replied, "I'm drawing God."

The teacher paused and said, "But no one knows what God looks like."

Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing, the girl replied,

"They will in a minute."

A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with her five

and six year olds.

After explaining the commandment to "honor" thy Father and thy Mother, she

asked, "Is there a commandment that teaches us how to treat our brothers

and sisters?"

Without missing a beat one little boy (the oldest of a family) answered,

"Thou shall not kill."

One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at

the kitchen sink. She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands

of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head.

She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of your

hairs white, Mom?"

Her mother replied, "Well, every time that you do something wrong and make

me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white."

The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said,

"Then why are ALL of grandma's hairs white?"

The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to

persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture.

"Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up

and

say, 'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, He's a

doctor.'

A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there's the teacher,

she's dead."

A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood. Trying to

make the matter clearer, she said, "Now, class, if I stood on my head, the

blood, as you know, would run into it, and I would turn red in the face."

"Yes," the class said.

"Then why is it that while I am standing upright in the ordinary position

the blood doesn't run into my feet?"

A little fellow shouted, "Cause your feet ain't empty."

The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary

school

for lunch. At the head of the table was a large pile of apples.

The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray:

"Take only ONE. God is watching."

Moving further along the lunch line, at the other end of the table was a

large pile of chocolate chip cookies.

A child had written a note, "Take all you want. God is watching the

apples.

It doesn't matter how many people you send this to, just remember if it

made you laugh, your friends will laugh too.

Thanks Sissy as you know my week has been crappy and well im still down hearted on some situations
and kinda pissed off at irresponsible teachers ect. Although baby i know your week hasn't been the best either
anyways what matters most is .....Love is everything. you say ,send ,do.  muah baby..

Thanks for all the prayers and these jokes.

Luv mumsy

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

As time goes by

Well it has taken ages to upload these pics grr ,my pc needs a format badly.
Anyways time sure does go by when i look at the pic of Joey and myself i realise how quickly he has grown . Maybe it is because his twelve and
taller than i am , and i am not short .

Anyways the weekend was good went and played street basketball , well not on the street
hehe just street rules.I think Bay and Emilio won
maybe one game lol.

How clean is my car :)

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Sis and Emile

Sis and Emile are up for the weekend :)
This morning i woke feeling yuck ,yes
i have the flu .It is just that time of
year when the bugs come out to play.

Anyways Sis was like mum come lay
with me and hug :) .I was like i have the
flu i don't want you to catch it. Oh she said
i won't catch it hehe , so hugs it was .
Of couse she whispered i love you :)
i miss you so much " Ditto ".
Plus i am going to come up every weekend
from now on because i miss you and
everyone.I read Kyels blog last night and how she misses her mum .I showed Sis Kyels photo blog and she was like she is such a sweet looking gal. Yes Kyels is a sweety what more can i say . I better go do a few things before Sis and Emile get back from the beach.Wish ya's a gr8 weekend tcz.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Quote For Today

If I had to choose between breathing and loving you I would use my last breath to tell you I love you.
--Source Unknown

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Far Away

Far Away I so love this song , although it's kinda sad. I just had to put it on here :)

Nickelback - Far Away - Lyrics FAR AWAY This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there's just one left 'Cause you know, you know, you know That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand I'd give it all I'd give for us Give anything but I won't give up 'Cause you know, you know, you know That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore So far away (So far away) Been far away for far too long So far away (So far away) Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know I wanted I wanted you to stay 'Cause I needed I need to hear you say I love you I have loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you any more Believe it Hold on to me and never let me go Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more Believe it Hold on to me and never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and never let me go

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Love Quote

"God gave us
two ,arms, legs, ears, and and eyes,
but He only gave us one heart
because He hid the other for us to find."
by flO

Think

Thinking Back

Well Sis and Emilio came up to visit last night , we spent hours looking at photos ect.
They left this afternoon and i was thinking back another time another place.

We'd looked at photos i has put up on a blog 2 years ago , and tonight i wondered where my thoughts were two years today.

Well i was so excited about going to Enrique :) it was the best of time i'd ever had.

Here are some things i blogged about 2 years ago.

March 10, 2004
Enrique

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To J
Only four more sleeps hehe
I hope he sings these
Yes i am going,even
if i have to crawl into
SEC

Enrique

Rhythm Devine
From the coast of Ipanema
To the Island of Capri
All the way to Kuala Lumpur
I will follow you wherever you may be
From the moment, I first saw you
Knew my heart could not be free
Have to hold you in my arms now
There can never be another for me

All I need is
THE RHYTHM DIVINE
Lost in the music
Your heart will be mine
All I need is
To look in your eyes
Viva la musica
Say you´ll be mine

Can you feel the heat of passion
Can you taste our love´s sweet wine
Join the dance and let it happen
Put tomorrow cares right out of your mind
As the music draws you closer
And you fall under my spell
I will catch you
In my arms now
Where the night can take us no one can tell

All I need is
THE RHYTHM DIVINE
Lost in the music
Your heart will be mine
All I need is
To look in your eyes
Viva la musica
Say you´ll be mine

Gotta have this feeling forever
Gotta live this moment together
Nothing else matters
Just you and the night
Follow on the wings of desire
Now the rhythm's taking you higher
No one can stop us from having it all

You are my heart......you are my soul

All I need is
THE RHYTHM DIVINE
Lost in the music
You´re heart will be mine
All I need is
The look in your eyes
Viva la musica
Say you´ll be mine

All I need is
THE RHYTHM DIVINE
Lost in the music
Your heart will be mine
All I need is
To look in your eyes
Viva la musica
Say you´ll be mine

Can you feel the rhythm?
Can you feel the rhythm?
Can you feel the rhythm?
Burning thru.....Burning thru

Can you feel the rhythm?
Can you feel the rhythm?
Can you feel the rhythm?
Burning thru.....Burning thru

Can you feel the rhythm?
Can you feel the rhythm?
Can you feel the rhythm?
Burning thru.....Burning thru

Enrique ,,,Have Always Loved You,,,Lyrics

Since the beginning of time
Since it started to rain
Since I heard you laugh
Since I felt your pain
I was too young,you were much younger
We were afraid of each other's hunger

I have always loved you
There's never been anyone else
I knew you before I knew myself
Oh my baby,I have always loved you

Since we kissed the first time
Since we slept on the beach
You were too close for comfort
You were too far out of reach
You walked away,I should have held you
Would you have stayed for me to tell you?

I have always loved you
There's never been anyone else
I knew you before I knew myself
Oh my baby,I have always loved you
Years go by in a matter of days
And though we go separate ways
I never stop dreaming of you
I have always loved you

And when you call it makes me cry
We never made time for you and I
If I could live it all again I'd never let it end,
I'd still be with you
Oh God,I miss you

I have always loved you
There's never been anyone else
I knew you before I knew myself
Oh my baby,I have always loved you
Years go by in a matter of days
And though we go separat ways
I never stop dreaming of you
I have always loved you

Enrique

Hero Lyrics

Let me be your hero

Would you dance,
If I asked you to dance?
Would you run,
And never look back?
Would you cry,
If you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble,
If I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die,
For the one you love?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear,
That youll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
Would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I dont care...
Youre here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just wanna to hold you.
I just wanna to hold you.
Oh yeah.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I dont care...
Youre here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you, forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
Posted by sweetspirit at 03:53 PM | Comments (0) | TrackBack
Online Love

What Can One Say,,,,,,,,
I will give you, some of my
Thoughts on this each day

My Thoughts For Today

They maybe distorted as am slowly becoming more and more unwell.
But i hate laying in bed.

Ok z

So your looking for love maybe
Sometimes loves comes when we least expect it.

I think for me maybe that is the best way.

Anyway i tend to drift from topic to topic oooppss

I think ,,,yeah i think too much hehe.
Ok z medication is making me silly.

Ok serious now.

Are you looking for love in the right places?

Do you truely believe you can find real love online?

Are you looking for a soulmate?

Or are you looking for someone for right now?

Are your expectations to high?

Do you believe all that you are told?

Are you naieve?

Are you honest?

Do you tell little white lies?

Do you really care?

What are you really seeking?

Are you lost?

Are you Lonely?

Can you trust enough?

If distance plays a part, can you handle the distance?

Can you really love someone ,

That you can't see in reality?

That you can't hold in reality?

That you can't know in reality?

That you can't be with in reality?

That you can't do things with in reality?

That you can't share with in reality?

Think of the above list before embarking on long distance relationship online.

I have a few friends in cyberspace and in reality that have met online and
made it a reality.

But of course their are the ones that haven't made it ,and for them it has been
just as hard letting go as if it was a reality relationship.

I guess my advise for online love is to follow your instincts , and not your heart.

Why you ask ,i will tell you another time.

Who am i to give advise , i am me hehe.

Seriously i have been there , and i am
still trying to work through it.
sounds crazy well life is crazy at times.

Ok i gotta go cook roast ,boo hoo me too
sick too eat .But must feed everyone else.

tcz
Posted by sweetspirit at 03:24 PM | Comments (7) | TrackBack
Looking back

Some say Don't look back
Some say look forward
I say

We can close doors
But we must make
sure that in time
we will open them
if need be

Sometimes in life
It is easier to shut people out,of of lives then to share anything with them.

Or just maybe the one person,it may be that the one person has caused
us to feel a pain we don't want to feel ,or made us see a side of ourselves
we don't want to see or acknowledge.

Whatever the reason for such a decission

One must truely think it through because such a decission,can lead to regret.

Time is precious no one is guaranteed any amount of time in life
death comes to all at anytime any place.

Death is our only Guarantee in life

Now i am not saying we should all forgive people and forget their wrong doings against,no way not ever would i state that.

What i am stating is

We learn from our own mistakes,so it is not wrong to look back to our past
at times.

For if we stopped looking back and recalling what we done wrong.
We would soon makes the same mistakes over and over again,maybe
that is why we do make some mistakes twice ,cause we don't take the time
to check back to similar circumstances.

I know myself i continued to do just that block out the past ,and just live in
the present.How stupid is that huh ,well i don't live in the past it is back
there where it should be.

But hey it's ok to go back and sort through it, what you may have done wrong
what you may have done right.It's a way of learning who you have become
and knowing in which ways one has changed since then ,be for better or be for
worse only you know the answers.

I've read a lot online lately
There seems to be a lot about people holding on to the past or memories
or lost love.

I don't believe anyone has a right to judge another persons feelings,cause
you can't know what that person is feeling.

If you don't have anything nice to say,then say nothing at all.

Do unto other's as you do unto you.

I lived i have loved

I have seen the brightest side of people

I have seen the darkest side of people

People have seen the brightest side of me

People have seen the darest side of me

I seen people cry,i have seen people die

I have seen people love,seen people cry

I still live ,I still love and like everyone

else throughout life we will all

Go through the above

,,,,sweetspirit,,,,,,,,

Finally this is what i want to share

Years ago a friend of mine had broken up with his gf.

He told told her ,if they weren't going to get back together
he would kill himself.

I talked to her about this,she said said she didn't believe him.

One week later , i received the devastating news of his departure.

That i cannot share as even now ,after all these years hurts still.

But what i will share is the words of his gf .We talked about their
break up and and at that time in my life i had also broke off
my relationship with my bf but i wasn't speaking to my x.

She said to me life is too short , and that i had a choice
i could still be friends with my x and talk too him an i
shouldn't take it for granted.

As for her she now had no choice because R was gone
and she could never tell him anything now, he didn't
even know i still loved him when he died.

So i guess i try to live by this now
That at anytime i am not getting
along with someone,i still try
hard to let them know i care.

Anyway try not to judge others

Live and Let Live

Try treat others how you'd like them to treat you

Take carez

Saturday, March 04, 2006

World Prayer Day - Monday 6th March

The Lord Is My Shepherd

I shall not want

Surely goodness and mercy

Will follow me

All the days of my life

And i shall dwell in the house of thy Lord

Forever

A prayer by Saint Francis :
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred . . . let me sow love
Where there is injury . . . pardon
Where there is doubt . . . faith
Where there is despair . . .hope
Where there is darkness . . . light
Where there is sadness . . .joy
Divine Master,
Grant that i may not so much seek
To be consoled . . .as to console
To be understood . . .as to understand,
To be loved . . . as to love
For it is in giving . . .that we receive,
It is in pardoning, that we are pardoned,
It is in dying . . .that we are born to eternal life
St Francis Prayers
Now I lay me down to sleep
Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep.
If I should die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take.

For children

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep.

May angels watch me through the night
and wake me with the morning light.

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep.

Guard me while I sleep tonight,
And wake me safe at dawn's first light.