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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

We Dont Say Goodbye

For the past 23 months i have read blogs ,been addicted to blogs, made some gr8 blog friends.
But like everything in life all things come to and end , i've done my time in blogland and its been
good its been sad its been bad at times ,there has been laughter and tears throughout the almost two years.So i never say goodbye but i shall say take care :) Now i must go email a special friend whom i have neglected.
cheerz tcz

Slow Dance

Slow Dance . . .
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round..?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground..?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight..?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night..?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly..?
When you ask How are you..?
Do you hear the reply..?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head..?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow..?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow..?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift..
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over . .

If You Forget Me By Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is
if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch of the slow autumn at my window, if I touch near the fire the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,everything carries me to you,

as if everything that exists: aromas, light, metals were little boats that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loveing me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

If You Forget Me By Pablo Neruda

Clenched Soul - Pablo Neruda

We have lost even this twilight.
No one saw us this evening hand in hand
while the blue night dropped on the world.

I have seen from my window
the fiesta of sunset in the distant mountain tops.

Sometimes a piece of sun
burned like a coin in my hand.

I remembered you with my soul clenched
in that sadness of mine that you know.

Where were you then?
Who else was there?
Saying what?
Why will the whole of love come on me suddenly
when I am sad and feel you are far away?

The book fell that always closed at twilight
and my blue sweater rolled like a hurt dog at my feet.

Always, always you recede through the evenings
toward the twilight erasing statues.

Pablo Neruda......Saddess Poem

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,
and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."

The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.

To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.

That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.
My soul is lost without her.

As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.
My heart searches for her and she is not with me.

The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, we who were, we are the same no longer.

I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.
My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.

Saddess Poem

Someone else's. She will be someone else's. As she once
belonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.
Love is so short and oblivion so long.

Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,
my soul is lost without her.

Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.

Pablo Neruda

Listening to Bette Midler - The Rose ....It's my song

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to blead

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of wakingthat never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dyingthat never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

I know I must have hurt you, caused you pain By Nicholas Gorden

I know I must have hurt you, caused you pain.
More, I know that I have lost your trust.
I wish I had that moment back again
To pulverize my carelessness and lust.
Sometimes we have to lose what we most cherish
To understand how much we are in need.
We play with life until we nearly perish
To dare the darkness, though within we bleed.
I need you as the Sun must have a rose
To turn its empty radiance to glory,
Or as a nation needs someone who knows
The secrets of its long-forgotten story.
I know my need of you more than before;
Thus for my trespass you may trust me more.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

2 Pac Lyrics / 2 Pac feat. Elton John - Ghetto Gospel

I like the song Ghetto Gospel 2pac lyrics-2Pac feat / Elton John Ghetto Gospel

The reference being about life and how we need to find peace on the war in the streets before we can consider world peace.

I am thinking of Kyels post in relation to racism, murder ect posted on Desi's blog.

For the lyrics to Ghetto Gospel click here btw there are no cus words :)

Ghetto Gospel is one of my favorites and finally on hot codez and on my blog.

Seek Not My Heart by Kit McCallum

Saturday, August 27, 2005

My kitty cat tsk tsk hogging my seat

Yes when i am at my pc i have to share my chair.Even if i tip the chair and make my cat jump off
she jumps back on and hogs the seat hence i have one third of the seat.While she snoozes tsk tsk.
But she is good company and she is my baby girl :).

The new faces of Islam in Australia

Quote from daily telgraph" why are so many young Australians turning to Islam when it is the most feared and scutinised faith in the whole world" Unquote , article by Anita Quigley.

I think Anita Quigley needs to do some more research on the above statement.I don't believe people fear Islam ,people fear terrorist acts .Only the ignorant would fear a faith no one i know says anything relating to the above.Common sense why a person chooses to change their faith,
is because that person has found the answers he or she was looking for and couldn't find
the answers in another faith .Now how hard is that to understand .


I spent the whole afternoon gardening , if i never do gardening again i will be happy.
Broken nails blisters yucky hands dead tired. Plus unhappy children because i was too tired to go play basketball, these are the days i wish i had a partner .Yes so he could go play basketball with the children whatever.

Friday, August 26, 2005

Reality TV ,,,,,I want your baby...What Tha huh

I want your baby that is the name of the newest reality tv show ,yes it has started in the Netherlands John De Mol billioniare television producer ,will test the limits of reality tv.
with I want your baby reality tv program.
There seems to be a great interest in if someone in Oz will take this step into reality tv.
Where a woman searches for potential sperm donors to conceive a child and after some time decides who she wants to be the biological father .There of course
was a lot of criticsm on aussie news in regard to this new reality tv program.

Of course it is against the ideal family and religious beliefs as it states
I want your baby and nothing else, no relationship bagage or hassles.

Well truth is we have BB on and we even have the uncut version of BB,
which i never watch .Now if I want you baby airs over here, i will be watch it.
Because yes i wonder what type of guy or man Yessica will choose.
I guess in ten years time then they can make another reality tv program about the child
conceived .

Where will reality tv end?


Calling Dr Letti

Calling Dr Letti beep beep beep .Where are you Dr Letti haha im tired and in a silly mood.But i have a question for Dr Letti , Is it a myth or fact that hammaroid cream reduces dark circles from under the eyes oh and also puffiness hehe.I have been hearing this for years that actors use it to reduce dark circles and puffiness under the eyes.Also this week it has been on the radio heaps ,so Dr Letti can you let me know please hehe.

Okz i gotta go out to the dentist and to Hunter New England Health for and xray
cheerioz tcz

Thursday, August 25, 2005



Okz guys and gals this may bore you.I went to bed to bed at 8.45pm i was so tired but after reading to the boys and Em.I just couldn't sleep.Now im chatting with a gf about cyber relationships yes im reminiscing haha.She is telling me about their first phone conversation and how scary it was te he .So i am reminiscing back to the first time i called my former cyber boyfriend.I recall he said " You talk so fast can you talk slowly" hehe nice memories.Oh btw it was sooo scary but a nice memory as he has a beautiful voice :).Okz i better go chat or she will think i am ignoring her.
cheers tcz

Wednesday, August 24, 2005


Hey i know i have two pics the same below but i will fix it another day,,or i will miss House.
Here is the other pic i thought i posted tsk tsk pic.It is so nice walking through the gully it is a little like Newie Uni.
cheerz tcz

The Gully leads to the green


This is the school gully ,its like a nature walk to the green grounds.Actually the school grounds are massive , in the coming weeks i will put up a few more photos here and there.

Off topic House is on and i must go watch House yes i am in love with Dr House hehe ,
well that is a slight exaggeration.But i do indeed like the character he plays.

Be back in a few days i have heaps to do.
cheerz tcz

Aussie school yard

Yes this is the bbq area now no aussie school could be without the bbq area;)

The old school yard

Lets go back a few days ..our backyard
Hitting the mind remote hehe, its now back to sunday afternoon.Ok because the boys went to supervised contact we only have from 1pm until 5pm to do outdoor sports whatever.Anyway so the boys nagged and nagged can we go play basketball.I was tired from driving and looking at cars but hey ,i had to get of my butt and spend some time with them.So off we went to our backyard haha not really actually it is the school grounds .The principle is kewl lets us use the courts and grounds as his policy is the more people are seen at the school, the less vandalism there will be.

School days reminds me of the

Cat Stevens Song.....
Remember the days of the old schoolyard
We used to laugh a lot, oh don't you
Remember the days of the old schoolyard
When we had imaginings and we had
All kinds of things and we laughed
And needed love... yes, I do
Oh and I remember you
Remember the days of the old schoolyard
We used to cry a lot, oh don't you
Remember the days of the old schoolyard
When we had simplicity

Those were the days my friend okz that is a different song.
Do you guys have any school photos ,i don't as i had a mental stepfather that burnt
everything we owned.I guess i could try contact the schools and try get some as the
schools always keep year photos.
okz nescafe time :)

Still car hunting ...I might buy one very similar to this

Zzzzzz i am so tired .Weekdays are so hectic as the boys have performing arts on Monday and Friday morings so i have to be outta here by 7.45am.Okz i am off topic tsk tsk yes car hunting.
This morning i received a call from Tony a car sales guy ,he was like all chirpy and i was like blurr.
The conversation went like this Tony... Goodmoring Libbie how are you blah blah blah i have the futura in for you to come in and inspect.I was like okz im busy this morning i will be in after lunch.
What a hectic day but yeah i went for a test drive with Tony , he was okz for a car sales guy not too pushy , plus i nagged him haha about this and that anyway i might buy the futura.

Ok i realize i am so tired i could crash right here at the keyboard , doh i have so much to do i want a housemaid.I have to make four costumes for the boys i am glad they only do one stage production a year.Yes i am so tired i was going to blog about the negative side of online relationships but i am too tired and i blogged about that on my old old blog at mblog last year,yes the blog that lost its server.

Okz i am gonna put up a few pics of whatever.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Scrapbook kit for children

I bought this scrapbook kit for my children ,it only cost ten aussie dollars.I think it is kewl as it
has it has 50 stickers , 36 frames ,glue ,scissors,
markers,and of course a scrapbook.I spoke to my bestie today on the phone and she said that she bought her daughter one for 30 aussie dollars .So i told her about this one and she said that she will take the one she bought back and buy this one as it has more items.Okz im off to do some cleaning and put the cabinet together. I'll blog again in a few days oh yes im blogged out.
cheerz n tcz

I must get off my butt haha

My Dining room almost looks like a art room or junk room tsk tsk, so i really must finish some assignments and clear it up.
I don't mind eating at the breakfast bar , buti prefer the table.Well on Tuesday i won't have any water supply because the mains will be turned off because of the new houses being built across the road .So i am gonna take a little break for a few days and spring clean early.Plus today
i am tired as i took the boys to access and when i was there ,standing at the iron gates on the little tele screen tsktsk.I was told the was no access today ,huh oh they had it wrong and finally let me inside the gates.That is supervised access for you, yes its kinda like high security .But anyway main thing is the boys are safe to a degree.

A little shopping spree

Last night i went for a little shopping spree and
this is what i bought.A storage cabinet for the boys room
and some scrap book items.So when i finish blogging i shall
co put the cabinet together.As for making scrap books ,well i will start that this week with my children.

Online Love

Online love i have blogged on this topic many times at other blogs.But this time it is different because now someone has asked me for advise on Online Love .Actually i am not sure if i can give good advise on the subject but then again i wont be negative as i know too many bloggers that have found love online .Oh yes even i did once but it fizzed out over time lack of communication ect ect ect.Now should i list the bloggers i know that have found love online . There is Letti , Peter Tan, MrsT, Joez sister, and another gal i just cant remember her name tsk tsk.
Well my friend has been chatting with the guy for over 18 months and they only just started talking on the phone ,so she wants some advise .Doh she had to go out for a bit i am waiting for to come back,i might have to go zzzland soon as i have to be up early.Anyways if you guys or gals have any advise in regards to online love do leave some comments ,btw they haven't met but will soon as he lives in the UK.

cheerz tcz

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Tsk tsk

Okz i am not sure what Em has done besides making her own blogs here and there ,it appears she has used my sign in name ect drats no i have to try sort this out.

Vegemite and talcum powder

Now two years after the previous photo

Nicky was always getting into mischief yes indeed .He loved to pour talcum powder all over the place and eat vegemite with his fingers from the jar.I put these to pics up because i am sure most parents can relate to these things
and because well vegemite has been on my mind haha.No Kstang called oz the land of vegemite sandwiches and i asked Desi if he tried vegemite while in oz.

Flash back

Here is a flashback from sweetspirits past, yes i did from time to time change my hair colour.
Okz yesterday i was going through my photo boxes and well i tonight i thought i would share this photo of myself and my first born son .Now yes this photo was taken many many moons ago i was 19 so okz many many moons ago are in fact two decades and a bit.

The Man The Legend

A few months ago i held a competition on my old blog The Man The Legend t shirt comp
Okz i did move blogs and never posted the winners so today i will state the who winners were here kstang
Yes a blogger and the other was a guy who lives in NSW his name is Beau .
Kstang may of had bloggers block hehe and posted on his prized t shirt .
Anyways that is the story about "The Man The Legend" t shirt comp.


If your life was controlled by a remote control

imagine if your life was controlled by a remote control

Would you rewind and go back and take a different path ?
Would you fast forward to the future and have a peek at
what the future holds?
Would you pause your life for a few minutes here and there?

So many bloggers tend to blog on going back and changing
the paths that were taken in a hypothetical sense ,
but truth is none of us know if the other
path would of been the better path.

Maybe i would be ok to go back and change a few things
but we live and we learn.
As for knowing what the future holds i wouldn't want to fast forward and take
a peek at the future .For the future might hold things i would want to avoid
and i would be spending my time trying to avoid those things.

Okz thats my crazy thoughts for today
cheerz tcz

Friday, August 19, 2005

Daffodil Day

Today is Daffodil DayEach year approximately 32,400 people are diagnosed with cancer in NSW and there are approximately 12,500 deaths. One in three people in NSW will be diagnosed with cancer before the age of 75.More than 60% of all cancer cases in NSW are now successfully treated.

For many of us cancer is longer the disease that only affects a minority of
people.For i know that many people have lost someone dear to them because of cancer.
Today my thoughts are with them and also with Jessie and her family .Jessie is my sons
partner and her mother has been living with cancer for several years.Jessies mum is amazing and never complains always puts on a brave face and is a pleasure to know. So on this Daffodil Day 19th
August 2005 the theme for Daffodil Day is belief – the belief that in our own lifetimes we can defeat cancer.

May God bless you all and tcz

Thursday, August 18, 2005

A 13-year-old Newcastle girl escapes from kidnapper

Ok i must remember to lock my doors early at night.This syringe kidnapper article has given me the creeps.

On another note i do hope the Australian team of eight technical fire experts do a good job in Indonesia and the haze stays away from Malaysia.

Cheerz im gonna go do a few things and then watch unleashed.

Give and thy shall receive

Give and thy shall receive Do you give ? Of course we all give something throughout lifes journey.
Be it love money trust kindness advise ect ect.

There are many things i learnt in my life and giving has been a part of that as has forgiving.
It wasn't until i started going to 5xmoms blog that i actually didn't care if people knew part of my childhood or a few things i had been through all i can say is yes i have been to and seen the darker side of life and with that i also found the kindness from complete strangers.I learnt more on caring and compassion from complete strangers than i did from my parents or blood relatives.
I believe my past has helped me to become who i am today and i am not wealthy nor am i poor.
But i have had to struggle at times like a lot of people but in those times i have helped others.

Several years ago i use to live in a bad suburb but my home was filled with love and lots children
my five of course and sometimes twelve others. There were some children that would come to my home for dinner almost every night.Although i was no longer with my childrens father he use to visit and abuse me for feeding these children because they were not my responsibility.
So the time came when i was sick of him trying to control my home and what i done so i told him he wasn't welcome anymore (long story).But he had no right telling me who i could help he didn't pay for anything.

Anyway i shall try cut this short because its getting to long.I befriended a catholic nun she was like one of Gods angels giving me strength do what i needed to do and a friendship that will outlast everything.One day she came to see me and said that she had been talking to a doctor friend of hers and telling him all about me ,yes she thought i was the bees knees hehe best mum.
Anyway she handed me an envelope and said it was from her doctor friend i asked her what is it?She told me i had to open it after she left , so that i did. I was shocked when i opened it for inside was a note saying " If only the world had more people like you, please accept this small gift as a encouragement for all that you do .The small gift was a sum of money and i didn't want to accept it but i did. Anyways thats my post for today and i am sure you guys give in many ways ,hope ya days been fine .

Smile n tcz

Ten Things i was going to blog about

This morning i logged on and was going to blog until my pc decided it wanted a catnap.

So i had to finish some assesments take my son to the dentist for some fillings.
Then arrived back home and i had to contact Power Business Institute
i must say i am not impressed and i should never of assumed the more expensive would be better.
Yes i am having a whinge haha actually tafe oten is so much better than power.

Okz now i have had my whinge i feel better :)

I can't sleep

It seems sometimes a certain kind of person gets pleasure or satisfaction by using words as a way of controlling others.At this time i am not impressed with this persons methods and yes his words are hurtful, but he shall find no glory in the end and as of today and previous days i shall not reply.
That is the one thing about me i take a lot and wait but once i decide that i have had enough then that is the end .
Im still annoyed grrrr

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Australia may ban posting of children's photos on Internet

Posting photos of children on websites could become a crime in Australia - even if they appear to be wholesome family snaps, . In a proposal with ramifications for schools, sports clubs, and families which make online "brag books" for friends and relatives, state and territory governments will combine to tighten the use of the Internet to ensure predators cannot access Internet images of children..Parents and community groups could still place photos on websites but if concerns were raised and links to pornographic websites discovered it would become a crime.

Now over the past week it has been debated on television and radio call back chats.A number of personal websites of children had been linked to
pornographic websites and photos of young children found on a known
pedophiles pc.I personally know of a cyber friend who had closed her website because of this situation.

Pedophiles in Australia are in every city only last year i telling Peter Tan that i always go meet my boys after school and walk home with them.Now last year there was a known pedophile hanging around the local schools.
This particular pedophile owned two cars one white and one green that was in fact part of his cover up.He was finally caught and lives 4kms away from where we live.Now as i stated pedophiles are in every city one lives around the corner from my best friend and yes it creeps her out.I don't know what other parents tell there children in other countries because i am not aware if the problem is out in the open.In Australia children are told about predators by parents and it is part of the sex education in schools .I will finish my post with links to this send him back

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Im glad we click

For Desi and cyberbloggie friends
What more can i say as it is already day.
So time for me to go to bed before i fall asleep
with my keyboard, for a card or tune click here

Big Brother is over for 05

Wow how fast that one hundred days went wow only two weeks until spring.I really thought Tim would win BB05 but Greg Logan won well so did his twin bro David.I've been at the forums not a place i seek in cyber space but it was interesting.It seems there wont be a chat with Timmy and Greg thats so not fair hehe. Well i better go to zzzland as it is after 2am and i must be up early i have a meeting to attend with Mr Black hmm drats.

Monday, August 15, 2005

Rollerblading is one of my favorite sports

Rollerblading is one of my favorite sports
or should i say a hobby as a lot of aussies consider rollerblading a hobby.What do you like to do in your spare time?Oh btw that is me in the photo not a very good photo, but i am not here to impress ,but i think my shadow looks kewl.

Age has no barrier is it just numbers

Simon aged 31 married and Edna aged 70

I guess for some people age is just numbers .I read the story in yesterdays Sunday Telegraph.
I myself think age matters but that is to me ,what anyone else does it completely up to them
it doesn't affect my life so i have nothing really to say about.Although i can understand a
person saying they feel inlove with another mind.In the sense that one could hold intriguing
conversations.Yes i like a man with a beautiful mind , hehe can you believe i have been spending winter watching Big Brother

Oh no it is the final tonight my youngest daughter is constantly saying lets move to Sydney and you can meet Tim and marry him .Ha ha i made the mistake saying i like his mind the fact he is a people advocate, and talks politics oh yeah his a journo but hey that don't interest me i have a few friends in that area.Anyways physically Tims not my type i prefer a guy to weigh around the 95kg mark.

You had a bad day

We all have good days and yes we all have bad days
it is indeed a fact of life .
Take the good with the bad and try make a positive
from a negative .Oh no it's not that easy but it is worth trying.

Anyway this is my song of the week
Desi if you have the Monday blues
stay awhile relax close your eyes
and listen to

You had a bad day ........ Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Use Google hey

Now i must remember this this haha.
What search engine is your favorite?

Pods are yummy

Have you tried Pods ? They are scumptous yummy yummy yummy .Okz i went one month no sweets at all .Yes i am trying to shed a few unwanted kgs as my jeans are too tight.Truth is i really don't have a sweet tooth.But i do like mars bars so last month when mars bars where removed of the shelves because of extortion threats some had been laced with pesticides .So i decided try out Pods and yes the are so yummy, right now i am eating one . Oh yes and i also bought pringles yummy okz there goes my diet tsk tsk.Well next in line is a roast lamb dinner yummy lots of vegies.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Mobile breast screening van

I actually was wondering how many cities actually have the mobile breast screening vans.Now the Hunter health breast screening van travels from suburb to suburb mainly locating at carpark shopping centers .The advantage of using the mobile van are convenience and the fact it is free.
Considering breast cancer affects both female and males in numerous ways, i intend to add some links to my blog in the coming weeks.If you have any links you'd like to suggest let me know.Also remember women are not the only ones who can be diagnosed with breast cancer.In Australia in 2001 a total of 11,791 women and 95 men were diagnosed with breast cancer.

The week gone by

Last Sunday i went for a 15km walk with Em ,looking at cars .I am glad i decided not to trade in my car as yet.Why because yesterday my neighbour sideswiped my car, she was like im sorry are we still friends.Forgive me but i have a sarcastic sense of humor i replied hmmm well i wanted to trade it in on another car,, it was a little dishearting as i have been doing work on the car.But hey it's car and can be fixed no big deal.

Of course sometimes in life we go back to go forward to work through things so it has been a week of many emotions for me,but its all good.Monday passed by so quickly i can't really remember much about it besides be a little worn out from the Sunday walk.
I thought come Tuesday i'd be slumped but to my suprise i was fine up and out of here by 8.30 went Newie to meet C and S at the college.I've decided to do some modules in class because i honestly get to sidetracked doing it online and must apply myself more.
The college is heaps kewl blue waving walls lots of glass, my children were like don't talk to any men haha.That thought didn't come to my mind ,in actual fact i don't talk freely with anyone new .Anyways their has been many issues to deal with
some i can share but some i can't share with anyone.But it is all okz reading Desi's blog did in fact make a differance to how i felt it took my mind away from the sadess
things and as much as we shall never forget such a beautiful boy and the ten and half years of your life we were blessed to be part of although your gone away we keep you and your family in our prayers every day.

Friday, August 12, 2005

In Silence

In silence i thought of times gone by
The hurt an pain came like waves hitting the shore
In silence i cried during night n day
As i sat in the rain , i knew i had been here before
For as much as life changes, feelings remain the same.

Its been a long week of reflections ,not looking in the mirror.

Monday, August 08, 2005

Whats next

I guess its good to feel safe , as much as i love Sydney no way am i going there not for a long time .
Sniffer dogs won't change my mind.

Friday, August 05, 2005

No desire to blog

But i shall continue to read blogs currently reading Islam from inside

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Free Image hosting by ImageSnap Hanging by the moment Lyrics Desperate for changing. Starving for truth. I'm closer to where i started, chasing after you, i'm falling even more in love with you i'm letting go of all i've held on to i'm standing here until you make me move i'm hanging by a moment here with you. Forgetting all i'm lacking. Completely incomplete. I'll take your invatation. You take all of me. Chorus: I'm falling even more in love with you. I'm letting go of all i've held on to. I'm standing here until you make move. I'm hanging by a moment here with you. I'm living for the only thing i know. I'm running and not quite sure where to go. And i don't know what i'm diving into, just hanging by the moment here with you. There's nothing else to lose. There's nothing else to find. There's nothing else, that can change my mind. There is nothing else. There is nothing else. There is nothing else. Desperate for changing, Starving for truth. I'm closer to where i started chasing after you. Chorus again. I'm hanging by the moment I'm hanging by the moment I'm hangingby the moment here with you ........................................................................................... Fort Minor Lyrics Where'd you go? I miss you so Seems like its been forever that you've been gone She said somedays I feel like shit Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit I don't understand why you have to always be gone I get along but your trips always feel so long And I find myself trying to stay by the phone Because your voice always helps me to not feel so alone But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so I want you to know it's a little f...ed up that I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating Telling you that I've had it with you and your career Me and the rest of the family here singing Where'd you go? I miss you so Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone Where'd you go? I miss you so Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone Please Come back home You know, the place where you used to live Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs Used to have a little party every halloween with candy by the pile but now you only stop by every once in a while Shit I find myself just filling my time With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind I'm doing fine and I plan to keep it that way You can call me if you find that you have something to say And I'll tell you I want you to know it's a little f****ed up that I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating Telling you that I've had it with you and your career Me and the rest of the family here singing Where'd you go? I miss you so Seems like its been forever that you've been gone Where'd you go? I miss you so Seems like its been forever that you've been gone Please Come back home I want you to know it's a little f*&*ed up that I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debating Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless It seems that one thing has been true all along You don't really know what you've got till its gone I guess I've had it with you and your career When you come back I won't be here and you can say Where'd you go? I miss you so Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone Where'd you go? I miss you so Seems like its been forever that you've been gone Please Come back home Please Come back home Please Come back home Please Come back home Please Come back home ..................................................................................................................................... I so love this song , although it's kinda sad. I just had to put it on here :)
How can you deny me, Something that is so true? Our friendship is worth the world to me, But my dream is to be close to you. We support each other endlessly, Giving hope through thick and thin. But my heart bleeds constantly to be near to you, Whispering the word, When? I gave you a path to my heart, And on it you certainly found your way. Now lying in my spirit, I dream of us everyday. And it’s the mystery that lies within you, Your soul I wish to be near. But as for now I will continue loving you, Quietly remaining here...
A little darkFree Image hosting by ImageSnap Enrique Lyrics Somebody's Me You, do you remember me?, Like, I remember you? Do you spend your life, going back in your mind to that time?, Cause I, I walk the streets alone, I hate being on my own, and everyone can see that, I really fell, and I'm going through hell. Thinking about you with somebody else. Somebody wants you, Somebody needs you. Somebody dreams about you every single night. Somebody cant breathe, without you its lonely. Somebody hopes that one day you will see, that somebody's me. That somebody's me. yeaa... How, how did we go wrong? It was so good, and now its gone, And i pray at night, that our path's soon will cross. What we had, isn't lost. Cause you are always right here in my thoughts.. Somebody wants you, Somebody needs you. Somebody dreams about you every single night. Somebody cant breathe, without you its lonely. Somebody hopes that one day you will see, that somebody's me. That somebody's me. Oh yeah... You will always be in my life, even if im not in your life. Cause you're in my memory... You, when you remember me?... And before you set me free, oh listen please... Somebody wants you, Somebody needs you. Somebody dreams about you every single night. Somebody cant breathe, without you its lonely. Somebody hopes that one day you will see, that somebody's me. That somebody's me. Somebody's me... Somebody's me... Oh yeah... FAR AWAY Nickelback - Far Away - Lyrics This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there's just one left 'Cause you know, you know, you know That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand I'd give it all I'd give for us Give anything but I won't give up 'Cause you know, you know, you know That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore So far away (So far away) Been far away for far too long So far away (So far away) Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know I wanted I wanted you to stay 'Cause I needed I need to hear you say I love you I have loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you any more Believe it Hold on to me and never let me go Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more Believe it Hold on to me and never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and never let me go

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